Heart To Heart: Idols
Hey Lovelies💕
I feel like these are my favorite kind of posts but but rarely do them because I feel like I’m going on and on without actually getting to my point🫠…like now 😅!
Ummmm basically, I was ON FIRE for this blog when I first started it. Every week I would post something new and swear it was for God. That it was God led.
Until a dear friend of my husband and I, said that soon enough those blog post are going to stop.
And in my heard, I’m thinking, “this man is really doubting my passion for this because I don’t plan on stopping at all”.
Meanwhile, my blog is getting lots of traffic and I’m being told how much my blog is meaning to people, which is just making my fire burn bigger.
Until, the numbers were getting lower and less people were engaging with my posts. Writing became harder. Posts became less and less, until they just stopped for basically a whole year, probably even more!
See, now my point here is that if this blog page really was for God then, regardless of numbers and engagement levels, I would continue to write and not care about all that. All I should of cared about was pleasing my God!
Sad part is, it took me until NOW to realize it!
Our God is a jealous God and he is not going to compete! It’s either him or it’s the world. Both cannot exist simultaneously. One will always have dominion over the other!
What I was claiming to be Gods’ will over my life was really my own.
God please stop me if it starts to happen again!
I was idolizing this blog site. I started focusing on the numbers and the testimonies. Just writing to get more people to my page and to see how many more people will tell me what my page has done for them. I left God at the beginning. I didn’t let him lead.
I said God if this is your will, let it be so.
Things started moving and then, somewhere along the line I told God “ I got this, you can stay right here!”.
Like, excuse me Ki’ari???? Who do you think you are?
Yeah, can’t do this no more.
The bible reads:
“Put to death therefore what is earthly in you: sexual immorality, impurity, passion, evil desire, and covetousness, which is idolatry.”
Colossians 3:5 ESV
I’m learning that “putting on your new self” really means that if I am focusing SO HARD on this blog, or physical appearance, my dream job, money, family, etc.. Then, I’m not focusing on God. I’m truly not letting him lead. I’m truly not living out my life for his purpose and his glory, TRUSTING that he will do what’s best for me. Like, I don’t think you understand how easy it is to idol something other than God, to worship something or someone else. Wherever your heart is…you will find your idols, and if we are not setting our heart on God…then where is your heart spending all its time and effort?
Listening to Tim Keller’s podcast titled: “The heart of darkness”, he says…”if you do not know what your idols are or where your heart lies…do you even know your own heart?!”
That hit hard!
I hope it hits you just the same, if not harder!
It’s taking a lot of work in me. But, realizing and confronting my idolizing habit is the first step.
May God the spirit truly compose these blog posts for those he intends it for. No more number obsessing or testimony obsessing.
I would like to close out with a prayer because we “Christians” have WAY too many idols and don’t even know it!
Prayer
Father,
Thank you for your love, your grace, and your mercies. Convicting me in many parts of my life. Lord, I pray that you have your way with my life. Take away whatever is not of you and fill me up with your spirit. If I ever again mistake my will for yours, stop me in my tracks! I don’t want to live for myself or this world. I just want to live for you, glorify you! Have your way with every thing that I do. I pray that this post reaches whoever it is intended to reach and convict them so they may repent and be renewed in you.
I love you so much Abba!
In Jesus name, Amen!
So much love,
Ki’ari 💕