Twin Delivery Story: Trusting God
Hello Loves!
I honestly cannot believe how long it has been but everyday I have thought about this platform and sharing life with you!
If you did not know, my last couple posts have been about my latest pregnancy and how things were going to be different this time around.
Let me tell you, I had my beautiful baby girls on August 10, 2022 and it went way better than I could have ever imagined.
Theres something so beautiful about trusting in God and also doing your part in the process.
A little background, my first pregnancy I ended up developing pre eclampsia around 37 weeks pregnant which led me to be induced turning into a disaster for me.
My son was born perfectly healthy and beautiful as ever but this mama felt far from okay and that carried on to postpartum life for nearly two years!
This time around I promised myself that I would be more educated and be more vocal about my desires and concerns.
I researched more about preeclampsia, inductions, my type of pregnancy, etc.
Early on in this pregnancy I found out I was having monochorionic diamniotic (monodi) twins, which are pretty high risk compared to most twins. Basically, my twins had their own sacs and umbilical cords but shared a placenta which posed much concern for things like twin to twin transfusion syndrome. A condition that could be very detrimental to both twins.
Sooooo basically, with this pregnancy my wishes of having a vaginal birth with minimal intervention were pretty low and the second I would mention this to my providers I could see the look in their faces that expressed that this possibility was super low.
Although, as time got closer to delivery day things started changing and a vaginal delivery became the option of choice all around. The providers I was seeing were leaning towards a vaginal delivery. Everything started working out in my favor.
Anyways, this post is not meant to focus on my actual delivery story but to shed light on trusting God.
From day one I told my providers that I did NOT want to be induced at all. I would either go into labor naturally or have a scheduled repeat c-section to spare myself the horror I went through the first time.
So much fear and anxiety surrounding the induction process and failed epidurals.
Until one day, about two weeks before scheduling the arrival of my girls, I started having this deep feeling of peace and joy about having a vaginal birth via induction. A chance to really depend on God and lean hard into him through the whole process, something I was actually very excited about.
Everyday I ask the Lord to give me a chance to trust him more and I felt like this was the ultimate way of doing that.
If only you could really understand my original thoughts and feelings about induction and how it scared me to my core, you would understand that this decision did NOT come from me.
Even my husband looked at me crazy when I told him because I was so against it for so long! He thought maybe it was just an emotional decision over a period of a couple days.
It’s crazy that I felt such peace and excitement everyday until the delivery day actually came.
I had my husband, my wonderful doula, my worship playlist, and much prayer, and with all of this I felt like my God was going to carry me through because of the being that he is!
Fear and anxiety are not of God and I did not feel any this day!
I labored naturally for 8 hours and decided to get an epidural because I realized what I really wanted out of this labor was to trust God, make informed decisions, and enjoy the process. Glory to God, the epidural worked so perfectly and about two hours later I was fully dilated and almost ready to start pushing.
Now, the main concern with twin vaginal births is that baby B ends up flipping into a difficult position and mom ends up being rushed into an emergency c-section leaving her to recover from two different deliveries.
My baby girls were both head down when it came time to pushing and my baby A came out smoothly and God was in the room because baby B was right behind her, she did not move out of position. Twenty minutes later baby B came out with a little assistance and was not breathing well at all but I felt no major concern because I looked at her and knew she was going to be okay and guess what, she is! Both baby girls are doing so so well in the NICU and I cannot wait for them to get home!
My babies being in the NICU was a huge anxiety trigger for me and its been hard but my God is above all things and his peace and joy cover me making this journey that much more tolerable.
My life is changing in the best way possible.
My relationships with God, my husband, and my children are getting stronger and it is making me feel so fulfilled. I know I would not be here if I did not listen to God telling me to trust him and do the things that scared me the most. He changed everything. I can look back on my labor and delivery experience with such joy in my heart about the same things that once caused so much fear and anxiety in me.
This is what he does. Trust him. Let him in. Just knowing the God that he is will change your life.